The Calm After the Storm

Vacations are good for the soul. In fact, I maintain that half the issues of our stressed society could be resolved if people just took some time off to relax, unwind, and gain some perspective. 

Jose and I have been on an adoption vacation for over a month now and I realized, while I was out taking a hike through the trees last Saturday that I feel calm. My mind is no longer racing with the what-ifs of our decision to adopt. The chaos that I talked about before has settled, not so much into a slow swinging pendulum, but really to a barely perceptible vibration. Yes, I’m still weighing the pros and cons of adopting a foster child. Yes, I’m still considering whether parenthood is the right thing for me at all. But these are thoughts that merely pass through my mind, create a small ripple, and then move along.

It’s a very welcome relief from the frenetic analysis of the past few months, and I think that in this state of calm contemplation, my subconscious mind will take all the facts and present me—eventually—with an appropriate decision.

At least that’s what I’m hoping for.